Thursday, April 9, 2009

my weakness is love. i've never really known it. i can only approximate a somewhat superficial relationship with it. love has always eluded my grasp and hence my somewhat fetish like relationship wit the concept. i long for love. i long for a relationship that approaches the divine.
i have tried so many times with failure. i have read and thought with no discernable breakthroughs.i 've worked so hard to know this yet i know nothing and feel nothing except for that which is beyond my reach. i've seen my close friends achieve love and yet it eludes me. i guess that is my lot in life to always be the observer and to never experience such emotions. i guess this is just the way things are.  does anyone else feel this way?